I Am...Rupert Spira

I Am
by

Rupert Spira



I am

I have no words to express Myself but all words express only Me

I have no meaning but impart meaning to all that is perceived

I am without beginning and end but all things begin and end in Me

I have no name but am called by all names

I have no form but all form indicates Me

I have no origin but am the origin of all things

I am without division but all divisions exist in Me

I exist by Myself



I am the longing in sadness and the longed for in all longing

I am the expecting and the expected in all expectation

I am the restlessness of the restless

I am the peace of the peaceful

I am happiness



I cannot be contemplated but am the object of all contemplation

I am imperceivable yet you perceive only Me

I am full but have nothing

I am empty but contain all

I give away everything but am never diminished

I receive all but never expand

I am everyone’s lover

I shine



I speak but am silent

I move but am motionless

I see but cannot be seen

I hear but cannot be heard

I taste but cannot be tasted

I smell but cannot be smelt

I touch but cannot be touched

I smile



Whatever appears appears in Me but I never appear

I am the silence in music and the music in silence

I am concealed in the world but reveal the world

I am the womb and the tomb of all that exists

I offer and contain in one gesture like an open bowl

I give Myself unconditionally to all things

I receive all things without choice

I am empty



I am the knowing in all that is known

I am the experiencing in all that is experienced

I am the allowing of all seeming things

I am pure sensitivity, openess and availability

I am the sun in the moon

I am the friendship of friends

I am knowing and unknowing

I am dark in the day and bright at night

I am luminous



Time borrows its continuity from My ever-presence

Space borrows its permanence from My unlimitedness

All colours borrow their light from Me

All lovers borrow their love from Me

All things borrow their existence from Me

I am abundant



I am eclipsed by you but you are illumined by Me

I am ‘yours’ and ‘mine’

I am the ‘yes’ in the ‘no’

I am the ‘now’ in the ‘then’

I am the ‘here’ in the ‘there’

I am the ‘me’ in the ‘you’

I am the ‘this’ in the ‘that’

I am the ‘always’ in the ‘never’

I am



I am the uncertainty of all things and the certainty of uncertainty

I am the security of insecurity

I am the true in the false

I am the dignity in pride

I am the reality of an illusion

I am the existence of all that exists

I am an open secret



I move but am motionless am motionless but move

I am concealed in boredom but am not boring

I am veiled by doubt but am not myself in doubt

I live beneath fear but am neither afraid nor frightening

I abide in Myself



If you look in front I am behind

If you look behind I am in front

If you look above I am below

If you look below I am above

I hide Myself but reveal Myself

I dance



I am immanent and transcendent

I am the bright, self-luminous emptiness of the mirror

and the dancing colourful images that appear in it

I am the light in all experience



I break open the body and spread it across the world

I break open the world and hold it dismembered in my heart

I am pregnant with the universe

I am the isness of things

And the amness of self



I am the unknown in the known and the known in the unknown

I am the love in hatred and the hope in despair

I am the same in all difference and different in the same

I think but cannot be thought about

I feel but cannot be felt



I cannot be approached but am always present

I cannot be known but know all things

I do not exist but am never absent

I am nowhere and everywhere

I am nothing and everything

I play



I am the love with which I am loved

I am the desire with which I am longed for

I am the knowledge in ignorance

I am the answer in the question

I give Myself and receive Myself perpetually

I lend Myself to all seeming things



I forget Myself for the joy of discovery

I divide Myself for the beauty of friendship

I hide Myself for the pleasure of seeking

I look for Myself for the pleasure of finding

I find Myself for the pleasure of knowing

I know Myself for the pleasure of being

I am Myself for no other reason

I shine



I become ugly for the sake of beauty

I become hostile for the sake of love

I am cruel for the sake of kindness

I am vast and bright

I am the heart of the heart

I am the voice of a child

I am wonder, astonishment and delight



Time and space move through Me but I do not move through them

I live in the space between thoughts but I play in your thinking

My abode is the moment between breaths but I dance in your breathing

I am never experienced yet you experience only Me

I never repeat Myself but am always the same

I am utterly vulnerable but cannot be harmed

I am made of nothing but cannot be destroyed

I have no defences but am your refuge

I have no goal but am the fulfilment of every desire

I have no feelings but am open to all feelings

I have no thoughts but all thoughts are an image of Me

I am kindness itself



I am undisturbable and am thus peace itself

I am without resistance and am thus happiness itself

I am one with all seeming things and am thus love itself



I shine in the mind as ‘I’

I shine in the heart as ‘you’

I shine in the world as ‘it’

But I only ever know Myself



Of the known I am the knower

In the knower I am the knowing

As the knowing I am and know Myself alone



I render all experience knowable

But am not Myself an experience

All seeming things are My names and forms

But I have no name or form



In ignorance I come and go in the world

In wisdom the world comes and goes in Me

In love all is Me and I am all

But for Myself there is no I or all

I am neither beyond nor within



I am the relationship in all relationships

I am the understanding in all meaning

I am the permanent in all impermanence

I am the experiencing in all experience



I am the thinking in the thought

I am the feeling in the felt

I am the seeing in the seen

I am the hearing in the heard

I am the touching in the touched

I am the smelling  in the smelt

I am the tasting in the tasted

I give continuity to the world

I am happiness itself



I am lost in the world and the world is lost in Me

I am abundant yet empty, empty yet overflow

I am homeless at home everywhere

I am helpless but help all things

I have no cares but I care

I have no desires but long for your heart

I wait without waiting



I cannot be recognised but recognise Myself in all things

I have no substance but am the substance of all things

I have no experience but am all experience

I depend on nothing but all things depend on Me

I am never found but never lost

I am the embrace of lovers and the love in an embrace

I am your call and you are My echo

I sing



Whenever you think of Me it is I that am thinking of you

I was not born but all are born of Me

I do not die but all things die in Me

I have no cause but cause all things

I do not last in time but all time lasts in Me

I am ordinary but extraordinary



Whatever is seen I am seeing Myself

Whatever is heard I am hearing Myself

Whatever is touched I am touching Myself

Whatever is smelt I am smelling Myself

Whatever is tasted I am tasting Myself

Whatever is thought I am pondering Myself

Whatever is felt I am feeling Myself

Whatever is experienced in any way I am always only experiencing Myself

I enjoy



I am the present in the past

I am the mirror of Narcissus

I am youthful but not young

I am ancient but not old

I am a fool but not foolish

I am a child but not childish

I am alone but not lonely

I am closer than your breath but further than the stars

I am intimate but impersonal

I am infinite



I am not something but not nothing

I am not somewhere but not nowhere

I am not ‘me’ but not ‘other’

I do not exist but am not non-existent

I am desired and yet feared

I am longed for but avoided

How strange



I project the mind within Myself, the world within the mind and the body within the world

I dissolve the body into the world, the world into mind and mind into Myself

Existence is a movement of My breath



I take the shape of thinking and seem to become a mind

I take the shape of sensing and seem to become a body

I take the shape of seeing, hearing, touchng, tasting and smelling

And seem to become a world

But always remain Myself

I am, know and love Myself alone



My eternity appears as time to the mind

My infinity appears as space to the senses

But I know only My own eternal dimensionless being



I become something then nothing then everything but always remain Myself

I can be separated from all things but no thing can be separated from Me

The world is My mirror and I am its lover

I am peaceful like the sky

I am open like the sea

I am empty like space

I shine by Myself

I play

I enjoy

I am